hmm

how much do you actually remember from when you were younger? I mean, i remember the big things or random things, but how much of a persons everyday life does a person remember when they grow older? Im jealous at this point that when i was younger i was not able to maintain a diary, but i couldnt, and probably still couldnt. This on and off blog i have is the farthest ive come to a diary. so right now im going to try and record the things i feel and do in order to have a better memory of what i was like now. this comes from watching the movie "time travelers wife" as well as an article in glamour magazine in which the topic was if i knew then what i knew now. It got me wondering what will i know at 31 that i wish i had known now. I guess that will be seen.

had a discussion about marriage today. how can a person really be able to say "i want to spend the rest of my life with you". you see them EVERYDAY!... my friend suggested a woman cave, no men or children allower, butt hen is that love. Or is that definately love. yet again, that answer will be known. I have loved once. scares me because i say it in the past tense, and i struggle with the tense of that word every day. One day i love him (present) and the next i know i dont. the immaturity he has, has something to do with it, but its also a physical thing... I dont feel physically attracted to someone i used to no be able to get enough of. makes me worried that i will always get bored... i gues its true.. love is when the songs start making sense